There are two more
things I remember from seventh grade English class which I can
combine here because they came from the same assignment although the
second is much bigger than the first. It was a writing assignment,
and I do not know what the theme was, but it was understood that Miss
Armstrong would be going over them rather critically to help improve
our writing skills.
After correcting our
papers, she spent at least one class period, maybe more, putting
different students' essays on the overhead projector to point out
areas that need corrections – not to embarrass the student, but
rather to illustrate mistakes that most of us make.
I do not think
mine went on the overhead, but the thing I always remember about my
assignment when it was returned was that I had written an essay about
Jesus! And the sentence that needed fixing was, “He was the Son of
God, but He is man on earth.” Miss Armstrong noted that my tenses
were wrong, and the sentence should be, “He is the Son of God, but
He was man on earth.” Since then I've been careful about my tenses
(and am amazed at how often they need fixing when I proofread, and
how often bad tenses still get through) – but I still wonder if I
was just trying to say something like, “Well maybe He was the
Son of God, but on earth he's a man”? Anyway, I can't imagine now
what would have provoked in me such a topic to write about for that
essay!
One of the papers that
was put on the overhead, however, still pierces me to my core
to this very day. It was by a classmate who was different from the
rest of us – a minority, although I won't say which one here. He
was a neighbor of mine and was in many of my elementary school
classes. Over those years, whenever we were in conversation at all, I
would bring up his ethnicity – out of nowhere I'd make a comment
that was stereotypical – and it was not to put him down, I did not
dislike him nor felt I was superior – I would not even say it was
gentle teasing, just something to say.
Well his essay was on
the overhead projector, and included in it was a sentence or two
about how much it hurts when people say things to him because he is
different. He did not mention names or even say it was just one
person who did that to him. Miss Armstrong lectured the whole class
about how wrong it is to treat someone that way. At first I did not
recognize myself because I would never hurt this classmate! And then
as the words on the projected screen sank in, I realized it – I was
the one who had been so awful to him – caused him this pain. If
Miss Armstrong had asked him privately who had treated him that way
and he had told her, then I have to say they both showed a lot of
class in how they got the message to me.
Of course I wanted to say
I was sorry, to let him know I did not mean any of it in a mean way
– but I was afraid to even bring it up to him for fear of hurting
him again. I don't know if we ever even exhanged words again. When I
tell people this story nowadays they say that I was just a kid and
what I did was more age appropiate misbehavior than pure evil. But I
find it hard to forgive myself, and I still wish I could tell him how
sorry I am.
A few years ago a friend
asked a question that I have given a lot of thought to ever since –
she asked, “What have you ever read that has changed you?”
And I opened my mouth to give a list of book titles in response –
but suddenly realized that there was no list. We all read, and we
read to become informed; but are there single books, papers,
articles that change our opinions? Our lives? It has taken all the
years since then to come up with my eventual short list – My
classmate's seventh grade essay is at the top of that list.
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Grade Essays
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